Oh where to begin…perhaps with the Ronningen classic “So, it’s a crazy story…”
The story of how we got into our Pullman apartment in the first place was an amazing testimony to God’s goodness and provision, and we have never forgotten His peace surpassing human understanding that it was where we were supposed to be. We moved in as a family of two adults and an 8 month bump, and found ourselves four years later a family of two adults and two fabulous, high energy children. When it came time to resign our lease for the 2017-2018 year, we were forced to take pause. For so many reasons, we just couldn’t see ourselves there any longer. We could re-sign, sure…but not with God’s blessing. So it came to be that our end date was set: July 31, 2017.
It felt like limbo, not going to lie. The rental company where we were seemed to renew leases months earlier than others in the area, and so it was near impossible to know where we were going to be. We researched the idea of getting into a little house of our own, a process that was as stressful as it was exciting. At first, it seemed that the Lord was directing us towards a particular double-wide, but walking through it, there was a distinct lack of the tangible peace we were looking for. He made it clear that He saw the intricate details of our hearts and dreams, and then gently (and not so gently) closed doors, opened pathways, closed off trails, and opened windows. All the meanwhile He was assuring us- “I see you, and I’m not dropping you. Just wait until you see what I have in store. It’s going to be good.”
Now, let me introduce you to February.
Hanging. By. A. Thread. But somehow simultaneously thriving. I have this picture in my head of Spiderman swinging on one piece of web at a time but flying at full speed. We allowed our housing search to continue fairly full force, especially since having been informed late January that we could get out of our lease as early as mid-May so the maintenance team could do renovations. But nothing clicked. We viewed more places than we had ever viewed for any of our other moves, but God’s peace was over none of them. I felt this restless, inpatient pull to just start the packing process…but no way were we going to live out of boxes for months. After all, we could be there into Summer. At least I knew that this limbo of not knowing where we were going to be had an end date.
Tuesday, February 21st
Boys were finally in bed. Sort of. Not. My patience was wearing thin. Here I was wanting to ignore the world, and they WOULD NOT settle down. I ashamedly admit that I was getting quite snappy with them. I didn’t understand…and then I heard it. The cacophony of sirens nearing. Peaking out my window I breathed relief as the fire truck passed my complex and moved on to…
…turn around. It was turning around. Out of the corner of my eye I saw another emergency vehicle pull into the fire lane on the other side. The same fire lane my door opened up to. One step out of my door and I now saw the flames they were after. Flames engulfing the building only 300 feet away containing the laundry room I had delayed using, along with at least 3 or 4 apartments. I simply stood and prayed as the Spirit led. I had no words of my own. The realization struck me that my boys had been more in tune with the outside world than I, hence their challenge in falling asleep. I decided to bundle them up (it was so very, very cold) and let them watch the process. I think it was really good for them to see that “firemen keep us safe” is more than just something Mommy and Daddy say. It is reality…
Even if reality felt TOO close.
(For the article on fire check out http://www.dailyevergreen.com/news/article_19a3d42c-f8b6-11e6-a52f-f7e1114a8365.html)
This fire stirred up many things in me, including adrenaline and trauma from the past. But even above that I sensed something that I couldn’t explain until later- PURPOSE. Strange, I know. Even still my heart goes out to those who lost their homes, and I am so thankful that everyone was evicted safely, even the cats and dogs. I am humbled that the fire could have been anywhere. It could have been closer, close enough to force my family out that night. But God held us safely in His hands, and breathed His comfort, love, and that seemingly out of place sense of purpose into my heart.
Did I mention I almost did laundry that night? 2 or 3 loads worth…that I would have had to abandon wet in the washer for days. God is so good.
Wednesday, February 22nd
I had seen the managers and office staff come to witness the fire the night before. I knew they’d be stressed, and wished that there was something I could do. So, since I am unversed in the art of fire damage removal, I baked cookies instead. Threw in a couple tangerines for color and variety. It was a cool opportunity talking with my boys, especially my 4 year old, about how we can do things for others to help make them happy when they’re having a hard day. My heart melted as I saw a look of understanding come into his eyes. He looked at the plate of cookies, and asked “Can I carry it? Make the people happy?”
So it was that we delivered the cookie plate to the office that morning. While I was there, a staff member informed me that they were about to contact me anyway- since we had already said we would not be re-signing our lease, and since there were people now out of a place to live, we had a new option. If we could find a place to move into by the end of the month/beginning of next, we would be free to go without fee for breaking our lease. There was no pressure to do so, but compassion swelled within me. That trauma I mentioned? My family was displaced once, about 10 years ago, and I still remember it clearly. Navigating even just the emotions of that (let alone everything else) was hard then, and I knew it was hard for these people now. I told the staff member we would let him know. We had a couple places we were going to be viewing in the next couple days anyway, so we’d have to see. We did have until July 31st after all.
Thursday, February 22nd
The worst, most disrespectful apartment viewing we have ever experienced. We were treated like we were know-nothings. The guide swore in front of and snapped at my children for jumping once on the kitchen floor. It was just awful. That door of opportunity slammed AND locked itself with the deadbolt.
Friday, February 23rd
I couldn’t help but will the clock to tick faster so that we could go see a duplex we found listed on Craigslist as “available now”. No photos or anything, but based on the description it seemed worth the visit. Tick. Tock. Tick…tock…
3:30pm was our scheduled viewing. A two bed, one bath duplex about 100ft larger, with washer and dryer hookups inside! And…a YARD. A fenced yard at that. Guys, remember that tangible peace I said we were looking for? It was here, beyond a shadow of a doubt. We were home.
3:40pm we were turning around to face the landlady. “We know you don’t know us. We know you don’t have time to run a credit check or a background check or anything like that…but when can we sign and have keys?” We explained our scenario, and it was looking like Monday. Except…when I called our apartment office to inform them, the scenario had tweaked. There was no wiggle room- if this was going to happen, we had to be out before March 1st, no later.
Of course February only has 28 days.
Peace answered for us. God wouldn’t have given us peace about the duplex if we weren’t supposed to move, so T-4 days it was. We spent that evening collecting boxes and packing like maniacs. When I explained our changed timeline to the landlady, she so graciously agreed to meet us with the papers the next day. It was hard to fathom how fast this was going. For all I had known that morning, we could have hated the place and I could be just chillin’ in my pjs, drinkin’ decaf and a-doodling.
But…T-4 days.
Saturday, February 24th
We signed our lease at 11am, and it was official. In no time flat we had reserved a U-Haul, collected more boxes, purchased a washer and dryer to be installed the coming Monday, and some other key errands that the blur has erased from my memory. Likely lunch…oh yes, that was it. Peter was driving the U-Haul to the apartment storage to pack up our storage stuff with a buddy coming to help. I, meanwhile, drove through McDonald’s with an order of “Two cheeseburger kid’s meals please. With regular milk. And can I have permission to dig through your recycled boxes?”
In the excitement- or insanity- I managed to get a hold of our small group leader. We had our group praying for our housing, and I wanted her to know God had answered our prayer quite unexpectedly. I was floored as this beautiful, wonderful friend called me with a thought- “Small group normally meets on Sunday anyway…how about a moving party instead of Bible study? And I can make pizzas to feed people and watch the kids here.” How do you say yes and thank you enough to such a burden off of one’s shoulders? I’m still working on that. We have THE BEST small group leaders, and were so blessed as our group rallied around us. I arranged to deliver a pizza pan and some ingredients to her before the night ended.
Now normally, we have commitments on Monday nights, and we realized we would have to cancel. Upon telling the people necessary about the chaos we were undertaking, we were met with total understanding AND an invite to dinner so that we wouldn’t have to cook and worry about dishes. We were also sent home with an extra casserole so that we could have something available to eat without stress of what cooking tools not to pack. And it was in a disposable foil container, so we weren’t having to stress about bringing back any dishes unharmed. Amazing.
T-3 days.
Sunday, February 25th
Oh hey, look…a full blanket of snow where there was none the night before. Of course. It just adds character to the story anyway.
Thought about skipping church, minus the fact I was scheduled to work nursery. It was good though. I knew I needed the forced break from the packing to do anything else, and serving in the Church is definitely a good alternative.
You can guess what the rest of our afternoon looked like. Even though it was our hands that had packed everything, and even though my bones were tired, I was still amazed that we pretty much had it all ready to go when the crew began to show up at 4ish. Even my brother-in-law and nephews drove two hours in the yucky weather to help. I dropped of the boys with my small group leader/beautiful friend/one of the most amazing people ever. She handed me the pizzas she had made and I delivered them back to the crew. The men drove off with the U-Haul, and my lady friends stayed and helped me power out cleaning. My brain was so fried by this point that I about cried when one of my friends swept in to help organize our efforts to be the most efficient. By the time I left to pick up my boys, there was only a handful of things to be finished.
So I picked up my boys, and we drove home. Home.
The boys had the hardest time sleeping that night, and it broke my heart. First it was one, then the other, then every hour like clockwork, and by the time Peter’s alarm went off at oh’dark thirty for work, I was still awake, now with a boy pushing his head into my throat because Mommy couldn’t get close enough.
T-2 days.
Monday, February 27th
The blessings did not stop once the move was technically complete. Peter had to go to work, so one friend took my boys for a couple hours while I ran around town changing addresses and running errands that would have been 10x as long with the unbuckle-out-don’t-run-in-the-street-herd-through-stores-again-with-the-street-rebuckle-no-it’s-not-lunch-yet routine for every stop. More friends watched the boys that evening so that Peter and I could do the very last of the clean up. One last mop and I stood in the doorway.
I couldn’t stop the bittersweet tears, a mixture of exhaustion, uncertainty, and memories. These were the walls of security around me and Peter when parenthood started. These were the carpets where my boys took their first steps, the linoleum where my boys threw their first spoonfuls of food. That was the large window that my boys loved to watch the world from. As did I. The nooks and crannies we had developed into our own. I knew this chapter had to close, it just had happened so fast. Goodbye, apartment. May you be a home of joy, laughter, and memories for whomever may live here next.
T-1 day.
Tuesday, February 28th
On this last day of February, we drove from the duplex to the apartment complex office, and we handed in our keys. It seemed so…anti-climactic, in a sense, particularly after the last handful of days. And that was that. We had done it- we had packed up our entire family and moved in only 4 days, and only by the grace of God did it go as smoothly as it did. Looking back, there is no physical way we should have been able to pack up as much as we did by the time the moving truck was pulled up to our door, but we did, and I truly believe God gave us more energy or more hours or more something that can’t really be explained. We are surrounded by AMAZING friends that took on tasks I could not have completed on my own without a panic attack inducing amount of effort. I know that because we chose to follow His tangible peace above conventional wisdom alone, that we were granted more favor and aid than we really should have been given. I type this, looking out my bedroom window at a still new scene, and am a bit in awe even now at the whole process that took place.
We are home. The Ronningen family has opened a new chapter, and God wasn’t being trivial or trite when He had spoken the words “I see you, and I’m not dropping you. Just wait until you see what I have in store. It’s going to be good.” And oh, it is.